I am excited to announce my new art show The Retro Series by Brandon Shea to be shown at In The Red Wine Bar and Cafe. I would like to invite you to join me on Friday May 13th from 6pm to 9pm or Saturday May 14th 12pm to 5pm for the Greenwood-Phinney Art Walk I will be at In the Red Wine Bar & Cafe for both. Of course you welcome to stop to view the show anytime during May as the show runs May 2nd to May 31st if you can’t make the Art Walk.
So sometimes it is just not easy to stay positive about life. You have high hopes for things, like your new job, new boyfriend, etc and you find those hopes fading quickly and wondering how to make them better. I on occasion wonder if my karma is just manic. I have these periods of time where things move great and good things just seem to come my way, then suddenly it shifts and I will have a period of struggle. And it is not my attitude itself (although that is affected by the sudden shift) but the situtations that present themselves. This then leads to me not posting on my blog, not getting as much art work done and not being as productive at work.
I took my new job back at the end of August and I admit I was excited to work for a non-profit that dealt with an issue dear to my heart. I came in with a concept of the position as it was presented to me in the several interviews I had. However, the position was altered and as not come about to be what I was lead to believe nor what was written in the description and presented in the interview. It is not a bad job, it just isn’t a management position although I do carry the title of Manager. It is frustrating on that level as well as on other levels such as an in experienced supervisor (as in never been one before) who I was put under even though it was stated in the interview I would not be under anyone except the Director of the dept. I have 20yrs work experience, and I am about 10 years older than this person, I have supervised, managed and had autonomy in most of my previous positions. This person is all about micro managing to the point I have to put on my calendar everyday what I work on and how long each task takes. Yet the work load is fluid and the same task can take 10 minutes one day and a couple of hours the next. Not easy to track. I am at a lost of how to turn this around into a positive. We have a strained working relationship and challenging communication.
Hmmm… not sure where I was going with this post. Maybe it is just a “I need to vent” post. Oh well, I can say this if one more person tells me that adage of “If life gives you lemons, then make lemonade” I think I am going slap them. I am working towards making this the best job I can but the damn brick walls I keep hitting and the politics of this small office does not make it easy. My lemonade is more turning into a lemon that has been drivin over and squashed several times.
So mid-January already. Wow it is going by fast. I have been doing my first of the year purge. Found some art I am trying to move out of my place. Had it on ebay but none of it sold so now passing off to friends. Going through my action figures getting rid of duplicates. I am planning on moving soon and I want to have my things in order before I do. It will be easier to move and I won’t have to take the time to do it while I am packing.
As for other things in the world, what is up with that fucking Palin using the term “Blood Libel”. She says she knows what the term means but she is obviously doesn’t care about the history of the term and how offensive it is to Jewish people. I for one was floored when I heard her say it. I think her purpose in life is to stir up trouble and that she truly is a just a bigot at heart.
Golden Globes! Yeah for Chris Golfer best supporting actor! That was a very well deserved win. And what a great ending to his acceptance speech.
So it is almost 2011! And time to do some new year’s clearing out. I need to purge some old art, go through the collectables, etc. Oy going to be a busy next couple of weeks.
So I am going through a training class for two days, started today and goes thru tomorrow. Diversity training but it only covers racism and ethnicity of people of color. Which is not bad, but disappointing there is no LGBT aspect at all in the training. I realize it is for people working with foster kids and that currently children of color are the most disportionate in the foster care system, but some of my experiences as a gay person relate to these issues. Plus it has this touchy feely aspect about it. And I hate touchy feely training courses. I was told by past attendees that crying happens for some because it such an emotional issue. Well no one has cried, thank the universe or powers that be for that, because I am not one to be sympathetic in this type of situation, its a fucking training course, not a show of Oprah. Anyway off to bed, and finally why is there no spell check with WordPress? I know I spelled something wrong in this post.
Why have I been so quiet? Am I just so frustrated with the state of so many things that I just don’t care to express my opinion on them anymore. Or has my life become just that boring! UGH! There is not a lot going on with me personally, I mean still dating the one guy (he is just the best), just passed the 3 month mark November 30th, doing the same daily routine at my job and quietly working on my art. I do have an old boyfriend trying to reconnect out of the blue, but I honestly have no desire to go there. I hope he is happy and has a good life, I think it is best left at that. Other than that just the usual 40-something worries not enough money for retirement, not able to put more away for it, keeping myself in shape and WTF is up with my cholesterol. It really sounds boring. Isn’t everyone saying life gets so much better after 40? Well not much is happening, not that life is bad. Life is good. For myself personally, let’s ignore all the shit going on with DADT, the president’s seemingly lack of power, congress inability to get anything done and the fact my insurance company is the SUCKIEST ever.
I should post my most recent holiday card image. I went for something different this year, no male angel. I was hoping for a great response to it, but of those that have gotten it, only 2 seemed to really enjoy it. Guess you can’t please them every year. I myself like it and think it came out very well, so I will post that soon, hopefully tonight or tomorrow. You someone said I should treat my blog like a diary, I suppose if I did that I would have to keep names out of it, but it could make for an interesting change. Not sure how some of my friends would take it, I can be blunt in my opinions.
Oh and some odd out of the blue news, my best friend’s son told me this past weekend he was considering me for his best man at his wedding next year. That totally blew me away. Not expected at all, greatly honored but I mean a total surprise. But we’ll see. No matter what he decides, I was very touched by it.
Life isn’t bad, but sometimes it is frustrating when something turns out to be not at all what it was suppose to be. If I follow what they say in those enlightenment books, then I have to get into agreement with the situation and make it work the best I can. Okay that sounds a bit over politically correct doesn’t it.
